Sometimes your toughest Job is being you , without any apologies. It’s also a tough job to hold your tongue in the most difficult situations. I have not always taken the high road but I’ve taken it enough to know how it feels to keep moving in the most difficult situations.
Yesterday as I was folding laundry, I began to cry and question God . It was all of a sudden and for some reason I was unable to share my experience with anyone but as I thought about life as a whole and the cycles of life and how they repeat, I was overcome with emotions. Life has a way of replacing things , people and relationships that were removed or aborted . In a lot of cases its a good thing but in some cases those replacements are not the best. I wept for the individuals that were aborted and removed because of relationships. I cried for those who were victims or circumstances , those who allowed others to persuade them , those that got off track looking back at situations that were dead .
I remember the story of Cain and Able , because of jealousy , envy and pure evilness Cain killed Abel. God gave Adam and Eve a replacement named Seth but what about replacing Cain , Cain was a restless wanderer of the Earth . He was cursed with a curse to never be able to yield a crop anymore and never have any rest. The worse part of it is that he was marked that no one could even kill him. So even in his misery of life , he couldn’t be killed and if they did kill him they would suffer 7 times worse than he had to experience. Just imagine for once how God judged every other murderer after this. Surely Cain wasn’t the exception to the rule.
Sometimes in life we feel like we make decisions and in our decisions are exceptions to rules. As if our life is perfect and without flaws, bruises and blemishes. It hurts me so badly to see someone walk through a life situation and are put down, dismissed and torn down by the very people who’ve walked through the same situation they’ve faced. There is no secret that I was a single mother, it was no secret that I had two children unmarried. It is no secret that I was embarrassed, hurt and disappointed but I survived and from that point forward I was in the position to help walk through individuals who walked through the same situation as I walked through. But even before I had my son’s I still had compassion for those who walked through the process prior to marriage. Is the sin the baby or the sin the premarital sex( different blog)? But still just bc you cannot bare a child or didn’t get caught are you the exception to the rule?
So I diverted a little bit on my subject of replacing , and removing …Let me get back to it . It is a tough job just being you . And sometimes we link up with the wrong people at the wrong times causing more burdens to our lives than blessings . Ever watched Fatal Attraction or Dateline NBC. And then sometimes we take on the roles of other people that were not divinely appointed for our destiny. Its a sad moment to see a someone who is operating outside of their God given ability. But if you don’t know you it is easy to take on roles that you want to have besides being who God designed you to be . It is also tough to be genuinely you …when other people seem to be more exciting.
Just as Cain and Abel had choices on how generously they planned to give their first fruits to God , we have choices that we must make in how we should treat one another, talk to one another , respect each other , and love each other . It is your will to love them to life or kill them with your words, the worse part of it is that they both have consequences and there is no exceptions because of age and gender.
We can read about Cain and Abel , we can read about Jonathon and David, David and Absolom, Paul and Barnabus, Jesus and Judas, Sampson and Deliliah , heck we can read about Whitney and Bobby , Brittney and Kevin or any person who has been involved in toxic situations. We’ve all been there , we’ve seen it happen but there is no exception to its ending . I choose the high road…there is no exceptions for this PK.